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Nov. 1st, 2007


thinspo post 1

My first thinspo post.

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I stuck to my exercise regime this morning and I haven't eaten anything save for one piece of celery and 200ml of juice today. Lots of water. All is good. I've already lost .5kg (1.1lbs)
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Oct. 31st, 2007


november plan

I'm so fucking terrible. I binged again. I ate 3 pieces of bread and almost started on a fourth one when I stopped myself. I'd already run today but I went out and ran for an hour again because of my fucking binge. I'm terrible. I'm starting my juice fast tomorrow for 3 days so I can ease into a water fast for a week or two.

I now have a support buddy irl. She's keeping me motivated mostly to do this because we're similar weights and we have similar goals. But I have to try and keep her motivated too. Sometimes it doesn't work because we're not always on good terms with each other. But that's where all the inspirational girls on lj come in.

I'm going to do this. I want to be thin and I'm going to achieve it. No more setbacks. I want this so badly.

Nov 1st - Nov 3rd
Juice fast

Nov 3rd - Nov 18th
Water fast

Nov 19 - Nov 25th
Juice fast, easing back into minimal food consumption

My workout is going to consist of;
5:30am - 6:30am (7:00am) - every morning
Walk (run?) from home to the local sport oval (10 mins)
Balance practice (5-10 mins)
Yoga; Various yoga stretches
The Great Salutation (30-45 mins)
Run the perimeter of the oval for as long as possible (persevere for 30 minutes)
Walk (run?) from the local sport oval to home (10 mins)

5:00pm - 6:30pm - every evening
Walk (run?) from home to the local sport oval (10 mins)
Tennis (20 minutes)
Skipping (10-20)
Run the perimeter of the oval for as long as possible (persevere for 20-30 minutes)
Walk (run?) from the local sport oval to home (10 mins)

I will work out until I cry or throw up or pass out. Every day.

That's what I hope to achieve, plus crunches and sun salutations and jumping on the trampoline and various other walking exercises and running whenever I feel like I need to. And I'm also going to run those 1000 stairs this weekend.

I need to print out some thinspo for myself too.

I will do this.

Think thin. Stay strong.

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Yesterday I ran so much I threw up and last night I couldn't sleep because my entire body was aching no matter how hard I tried to get comfortable but it felt good to ache so much. I only had 150 cals yesterday but I had a setback and had a bite of a candybar and chewed and spat the rest of it. I felt so disgusted with myself that I purged and cried the entire time because I'm phobic about throwing up. Then I just felt horrid about doing that. So I think overall yesterday was a bad day.

Today I ran for an hour and now I feel really weak but that may also just be because it's that time of the month. I'm too scared to weigh myself because I'm bloated. I don't want to have put on any weight.

I've only had 114 calories today. And if I'm right, I've burnt more calories than I've eaten. I'm feeling good about that.

Starting the juice fast tomorrow. And on the weekend I plan to run the fight of stairs thats on the side of a hill, several times. There's over 100 stairs there and if I run up and down them 5 times thats 1000 stairs. I really want to do it.

Oct. 30th, 2007

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This is my new journal that I'm hoping to keep with some anonimity. My vanity needs to be dealt with. I need to get to a point that I can be satisfied with how I look because I know I'll never be content with who I am.

I'm so tired today. I just can't stand to be awake but I'm supposed to clean up my room, it's not nice living in a place that looks like a hurricane happened to it. It's bad enough that I'm not happy with myself, so at least I should create a living environment that I can be somewhat content with. That's what I should be doing now but I don't feel like it at all.

November 2007



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